2018 Reflections

I think this will be the first time I’m going to write down my new years resolutions as an adult. In the past, I would think of a few ideas here and there but I never took the TIME to write them down, let alone strategize how I plan to accomplish my goals. It is one thing to write down the goals but I think more importantly, I need to come up with ways and tactics that will help me achieve them. 2018 was a year of change – I faced many challenges, from personal to professional, physical, mental and emotional. So before I write down my 2019 resolutions, I also wanted to take time to reflect on 2018.

A recap of 2018:

  1. I left my first and only job out of college of 6 years, the job that I loved (for the most part), took me to Australia (the best 2 years of my life to date), and the job that consumed a big part of my life (in some strange ways, a job that had defined me)
  2. I moved in with my boyfriend of 7 years, living together for the first time in the US (we lived together for 1 year in Australia). This is the first time I’ve moved in with a significant other. To say that its been challenging is an understatement. Meshing two people’s lives and habits together was definitely harder than I could have ever imagined.
  3. In the last 3 months of 2018, I experienced many health scares- too many doctors (from a rheumatologist to an oncologist), hospitals, and needles. Racked up thousands in medical bills, even WITH insurance.
  4. I learned that even though I may be making more money and working less at my new job, I need to feel fulfillment more than I need money. This is one of the reasons why I started my Instagram and Blog…I needed an outlet, I needed to find something to fulfill me…drive me!
  5. I learned to value Time infinitely more. The pace of life changed…time is flying by faster and faster and all I want to do, is to be able to slow it down. I became greedy with time and learned that time is limited. I wish I just had more TIME.
  6. I learned that living super close to my family has its pros and cons.
  7. I realized that I need to focus on my health before anything else…I used to wake up early and spend my evenings on Instagram, engaging, brainstorming about content, doing research, etc and realized that it consumed me…It consumed my thoughts and at one point, my life. I chose the gram over my health.
  8. More than ever, I realized how much I need to get on a plane and travel- multiple times a year.
  9. I learned that change is good…in all aspects of life.
  10. Lastly, I learned that things don’t always turn out the way you had imagined it to, planned or hoped for. The unknown scares the shit out of me…especially being the planner that I am. But the unknown = endless possibilities and I learned that I need to let go…plan less…and let life surprise me.

Not going to lie…that was actually very therapeutic! This is the first time I’ve written down my reflections too. I think this will actually turn into two separate blog posts (sharing my 2019 new years resolutions next). I highly recommend taking an hour out of your day before this year is over to reflect on everything you’ve learned and experienced (good and bad). It’s way to easy to go through the motions of life and forget to take moments here and there to pause and reflect!! Although in my books, this was a tough year, I think I’ve grown the most. I’ve grown in more ways than I could have ever imagined (granted I’ve also shed more tears than all the previous years combined! haha) Some days I was an emotional mess, other days I was completely numb. But I was more human than I had ever been before.

“Material things lost can be found. But there is one thing that can never be found when it is lost – “Life”. -Steve Jobs

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